Do you find that the actual deciding is the hardest part? And that once you decide, make a final decision, the weight on your shoulders disappears?
I mentioned a week or so ago that my current training schedule had been having some hiccups… hip hiccups to be exact. I was following doctor orders and started to gain back the lost confidence. Then I heard the pop on an early 2 mile-run. I heard it, felt it, screamed an explicative at it in the middle of the street and run-limped my beaten up self the rest of the way to the Y.
Damn.
I was supposed to be doing 10 the next day. The final ‘test’ to see if the race was even an option. I iced, took the ibuprofin, and obsessed over the should I or shouldn’t I ALL. FiRIGGIN. DAY.
If I didn’t do the race I was quitting. I’m not good at quitting. I’m quite stubborn — please don’t tell Babe. I knew I could do it but I didn’t know if I could do it and be satisfied with the results. And if I wasn’t going to be satisfied with the results then I’d just be hard on myself about that. But then if I could do it was I really trying hard enough or was I selling myself and my abilities short? If I did do it would I hurt myself more? The injury I have isn’t one that can be ‘fixed’ so to speak, it just takes rest and strengthening the weakness. Next on the list: 60-miles in 3 days. The 16-week training for that started yesterday. Should I just move on and set my sights there? There’s always next year, right? Babe is going to be out of town, I’m short on favors for watching all the kiddies. And for some reason no one is jumping up and down about coming to my house at 4 am that Sunday. Back and forth. Back and forth. Just decide already and be done with it!!!! Ugh, I can be so annoying.
Deep breath.
I’m not going to do it.
There it is. The decision. Weight is lifted. Now you know, all of you. Now at least you know I thought about it, I didn’t just not show up.
And I still did all of this…
IN FACT!
I did all THIS in the cold months, with four kids, AND a hip injury. I think that certainly earns me the t-shirt. And a massage.
Clean slate, new training schedule — so much potential for the blue hi-lighter!
Imma movin’ on!
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19 Responses to imma sit this one out
let’s get physical | chosen chaos
Replied on: October 4, 2012, 6:03 AM
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Elaine A.
Replied on: May 1, 2012, 11:47 AM
I feel ya, girl! You know I had to opt out of a half at the end of March because of my ankle/Achilles issues and I’m still not back to running yet. I think you made the right decision but I know it’s hard.
It’s alright, you’re still gonna do it!
p.s. I used the same schedule for my first half. That first paper looks VERY familiar!
Jamie
Replied on: May 2, 2012, 2:22 PM
I do remember that. I’ve used this schedule for all of my 1/2’s — it makes it very attainable I think. I will do another one some day…
Deb
Replied on: April 30, 2012, 5:50 PM
I did Hal’s training for WALKing a 1/2 marathon. At 56 there was absolutely no way I was going to walk a 1/2 marathon. But once I got started, with a friend, there was no stopping us. I found a love for walking and I truly believe that the training program was amazing. That hip of yours will get better and you will be back on the training schedule in no time. In the meantime, enjoy your training for the 3-day walk. You will be amazing at it! I’m cheering for you all the way.
Jamie
Replied on: May 2, 2012, 2:21 PM
It is addicting isn’t it! Let’s do a walk together sometime!!
julie gardner
Replied on: April 26, 2012, 6:47 PM
Oh, Jamie. I feel your pain. Literally. Not to sound one freakin’ hundred years old, but I got bursitis in my hip three years ago — shortly after the Napa Valley Marathon while training for LA and the only thing that worked was resting.
And it did work. And I ended up running Santa Barbara that winter and then LA the following year. Injury free.
My husband is a “run through the pain” kind of guy. But I think that’s just crazy. (Don’t tell him.) Long-term health and the ability to reach other goals in the future is far more important.
Having said that, I now have bursitis in my knee and I’m PISSED! I want to be running, training, moving forward. But I know know know I have to let my body heal.
And then I can be back out there.
You will ROCK the Komen walk. You will.
Be gentle with yourself. And your strength (and stubbornness) will take you the best of the way…
Jamie
Replied on: April 28, 2012, 9:40 PM
I think I’m discovering that I’m a run through the pain person myself. The last time I was injured my doctor told me to go have another baby and by the time I was done it’d be healed. I did and he was right. I can’t do that again!
I’m excited to re-focus on the 3Day, it’s proving to be extremely challenging. Not the actual walking but the actual timing of it. It takes sooooo long to get the mileage in! But, I guess that’s the point. If it was easy everyone would do it!
Sarcasm Goddess
Replied on: April 26, 2012, 5:18 PM
Wow, that’s pretty amazing! I’m almost motivated to get off my ass and take a walk. Almost. Hope your hips feels better!
Jamie
Replied on: April 28, 2012, 9:41 PM
Ha! Almost… well at least take a walk to the kitchen for some more wine!!
Kelly
Replied on: April 26, 2012, 8:16 AM
I have a friend doing Hal’s program! Looks like you are doing amazing! I wish I could get past 6.2!
Jamie
Replied on: April 28, 2012, 9:42 PM
I wish I could stay at 6.2 and just let it be! I guess we’re never satisfied! The first time I did Hal’s program I had only done 5K’s. I wish there were more 10K’s out there to run. I like participating in the ‘race’ atmosphere.
Kim Pugliano @The G is Silent
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 11:21 AM
Go Jamie!!!!
Jamie
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 10:12 PM
Thanks G!
Alison@Mama Wants This
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 11:10 AM
You’ve got this!!!
Jamie
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 10:12 PM
I do!
LUM
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 8:49 AM
There really IS always next year!
Jamie
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 10:13 PM
LUJ
Susi
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 7:19 AM
Wow. I look at this and admire your dedication and stamina. I’m pretty good about my exercise schedule. But this is amazing. Good luck.
Jamie
Replied on: April 25, 2012, 10:12 PM
Thanks Susi! Highlighting keeps me motivated, so weird!